What happens when I face with problems I can’t solve.
Quite simply I cry. I show emotion and saddness. I would also ask “why me?”. This is my true self that I don’t normally show people. I show regret, disappointment, sometime even anger (very rare). I like to hide this from people (sometime from myself too). There is normally just me. (quite often in the shower! and in the dark!)
This is how I deal with negative emotion. I shut out all my senses and be alone in the dark. I don’t need anyone. All I need is myself to myself.
What normally happens is that I absorb all these emotions and would be fresh in the morning to fight another day!
I feel embrassed telling everyone. Right now I am asking myself whether telling others would help me.
I sometime really don’t understand myself. It is like I am making it up as I go along.
At the end of the day, I just have to accept there are problems I can’t solve.
Can’t solve it at this moment anyway. I will remember to come back to it one day.
PS I know it might not be meaningful to you. I wrote this post because this is my blog, and it is about the real me.